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I love my sis so much!! I can't wait to see her this weekend!

It took me some time

But now and I am strong. There is no need for me to cry anymore. I've got myself to look after..I've got myself to be strong for. I've found strength and courage in that for the first time..I'm used to looking for that in other people, but now I've found it in myself.

Poem

"Subconsciously Written"
By. me
Hidden in this captive place,
A memory she cannot erase.
All the words fall short
,They leave undefined the way she feels inside.
He corrects her where she lies,
Hiding under this beautiful wicked disguise.
Deception is not always truth,
It is all that lies beneath her.

Toxic Town

This town is only fool* of liars. All thats left are the people who have bad intentions. All thats left are people like her. I am better than that. I am not a liar, stealer or cheat. I am a beautiful honest person.

I want..no I need to get out of this place.


* Spelled this way intentionally

P.S. Love you Momma and Daddy! I wish I was in the Holy City..I would feel better

The Mask

"Mask"
"The mask she wears covers who she really is from the rest of the world,
No emotion on her sleeve,
This covers all of them.
With tears in her eyes she hides away from those around her,
She lets go of every word,
As if it has no meaning.
Her heart cannot take it anymore.
She uses this cache to veil that which she really is,
Falling into this diguise,
She allows no one to view her soul.
Concealment is her goal,
This facade secretly accompanies her.
The rest of the world drives on,
Simply unaware of this disappearing beauty.
Where tears once stood,
She can only provide empty eyes.
Where a smile once formed,
Her lips become death-like.
No emotions.

Summer '07 is over in 1 day

This summer is coming to an end. I start school tomorrow morning at 9am with a Western Civ class! So exciting! I am a little nervous, because this is such a new experience for me, but the unknown aspect of it intrigues me.

This summer has been filled with many new adventures, and many beautiful days. I have grown a lot, and also learned much about myself and the people around me. I has been a rough summer.

But college for me is a fresh start, and I am optimistic about the out come.

I'd like to thank my Momma for getting me this far in school, she is the most intelligent woman I know. Until recently I never realized how blessed I was to have her as my teacher all these years. She prepared me for things and situations I never thought I would met, but when they came about having here knowledge helped me through. Thank you Momma.

I'd like to thank my Daddy for his sense of humor, because even though we may not always get along or agree on things(boys in particular) you are always there to make laugh, which I would be lost without! It nice to have someone there like you who is just obsessed with Harry Potter as I am. Thank you for sharing your stories of the struggles you have been through, because I even though I may not fully appreciate it now, one day when I look back at what I've gone through I'll know that all that stregth came from you. You are Batman :)

P.S. I know I'm not smarter that you :)

I'd like to thank my sister, Baby Girl as Momma Calls her. She has stuck by me through everything. She's my best friend, I would dissapear without her.

I'd like to thank Jon. He is the coolest cook I know. He is one of the funniest people I know, and also one of the most talented!

And last but not least, Andy Roo. My insanity in the family(though, we are all a little crazy!) Whenever I want to have a goo time, I find my little man!

My family is my rock.

I feel

I feel like a huge weight and dissapointment to everyone in my life. I feel like I am in everyone elses way of success. And instead of people listening to what I want for myself they are to busy telling me that they now what I want(even though they don't) and they know and want whats best for me(which i dont disagree with). I am so emotionally tired and drained of this. I can't make anyone happy. I wish I could just work on what make me happy, which is my art, but its just not happening.
I wish that instead of people telling me that I'm wrong they could help me in a more positive way. I need that.
But as of this moment..I am my only influence, and I am going to work on making myself happy.

Momma Bear's Birthday!

Todays is Momma's Birthday!

My mother is probably one of the most inspiring people I know. Seeing all that she has accomplished, and yet she strives for more. She has sacrificed so mush for her family and her children. She is also a great companion! Who else could I jump in the car with and go on and edwin weekend with the girls? She is always there handing out the greatest advice, teaching me all that she has learned, making me laugh so hard in Hechts playing with the mannaquins and there underwear, or humoring me when I discover Spotted dick, and supporting me in everything I do.

I dont know what I would do with out my momma! I love you momma! Happy Birthday!

Momma and I at the Bowling Alley

In the Kitchen whipping up something amazing!

At Angel Oak with Dad.

Momma and Christianne

Mom and I in the Mountains

A fun night at Hechts with mom!

I think this speaks for itself!