Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Day 6

Seek Sacred in the Ordinary


Task:Find evidence of the sacred in your garden, or in your neighborhood, or on your street. What about this ordinary place is extraordinary?


So in accomplishing this task, all I had to do was look at my back yard, and I was left breathless. I am so blessed.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Day 4 & 5

Try not to Panic and Pay attention

Today and yesterday I had to task:
1. Do something without expecting recognition for it and,
2. Notice a miracle in your everyday surroundings.


So,
Yesterday I handed it all to God. I decided that everything I did I would do for him and amazing things happened. I have never been thanked so many times in my life.

And today
I looked around and noticed one most amazing thing:
My family has taken me back even after all the stuff I've done.

I love my life

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Day 3

"Be Kind"

Today it just talked a lot about how people must be kind to each other. By doing this we can "help drive some of the darkness out of the world."I thought it was beautiful. I had a rough day.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Day 2

"Go into All Four Rooms"

In life you are given for rooms they are: a physical, a mental, an emotional and a spiritual room.
It says in my book that people generally linger in one room most of the time. But it also says that unless we air out each room everyday we are not a complete person.

Task:"Assess the condition of your four rooms. Which one looks like you visit is regularly? Which one needs airing out?"So I thought about this task.....A LOT today. Where do i spend most of my time...the sadest part...my conclusion..physical. I hate that. I mean, yes, at times it is necessary to be there but life is not based on physical things.

Sooooooooooooo. What will I do to change this..well obviously open the doors and windows to my other three rooms. I decided I need to do the most cleaning in the spiritual and emotional room. I've havent been in the spiritual room in ages, and I need to clean out all the baggage from the emotional room. LUCKILY! Today I threw out a ton of my emotional baggage. So yay me.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

A New Day: Day 1



Starting today I'll be writing a note everyday. I'm reading a book called 100 Ways to Keep Your Soul Alive. Everyday it gives you a new task. I'll be writing about how I act out these things....


So here;s to the Future, Here's to the Now, and Here's to growing and learning more about myself.


Day 1:Task: "Live in this Moment." "Do something competely on the spur of the moment today, without thinking about past experiences or future consequences.


So what did I do...I made deviled eggs, which I haven't done in forever, but I have been craving them. So I just made them.I also let go of something from my past that I have been clinging to, but I dont need it anymore.


Now I need to find myself, I need happiness.



God said "My name is I am." Not "I was," Not "I will be," but "I Am."

"When you live in the past, with its mistakes and regrets it is hard. I am not there. My name is not 'I was.'

When you live in the future, with its problems and fears it is hard. I am not there. My name is not 'I will be.'

When you live in this moment, it is not hard. I am here. My name is 'I am'"So this is me now. I am laying it all out. I am finding myself by finding God.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Tired

I need a break. I'm tired.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

poems

1.
In a perplexed state he wanders,
He is through with all these games,
For he has played far to long.
This tranquil feeling spreads as he closes his eyes.
She cannot help but fear destruction,
As a drop of rain falls,so does her gaze.
In rapture of the pain her heart skips a beat.
As the terrential down pour continues,
He breaks to a stop.
As she slowly grabs her things she wispers "I love you" on last time,
Having barely closed the door,he speeds away,
Leaving her there in the heavy down pour,
An unspoken reflection on wht was once had is lost in trepedation.
Death has come.
2.
And so in this moment at last,
She will try to forget her clandestine past,
She will walk from his arms,
Into a cloister of her own,
Taking on the charm that has left her alone,
Thriving to see her own defeat,
Once she falls she will slowly be beat,
In anger,
In sadness,
She will slowly fall.

3. Into a dream he falls,
The defeat she has presented him calls,
A cold awareness of where he lies,
Causes him to open his swollen eyes.
In her presence he has now become austere,
Pulling away from her words that tear.
With these spurious dreams he slowly dies,
Dreaming days and dreaming nights.
"For they who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who only dream by night,"
Her stoic demeanor will drive him away,
Into ination he will sway.

4. Standing here,
Falling so gently never hurt so much,
Why is this pain wind breaking my heart?
So swiftly I'm carried to a moment of ethereal bliss,
Silently wasting away.
Flickering in and out I am unaware,
Panic spreads over,
And then follows dispare,
As I pallidy awaken,
You gesture to free this heart that has been taken.
I fall into you,
And I quicly stand on my own,
Strength was all I needed.