Bitter Sweet Symphony

My Camera came today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! Pics will be on here soon!




I wrote this quite a while ago, but I love it.


I am Bitter Sweet. I am everything I want to be, whether you see it or not. Tonight I am alone, but I am not lonely. I now see everything I never thought I would quite understand. I can change, no matter what you say. But you cannot change me. I'm here in my room. Listening to this sound we simply call life. It passes us by, whether gently or not, it flows. Where will you end up, I guess we shall never know. What's the point in waiting around? Its happening right in front of you, don't let it pass you by. This all takes courage, it takes strength, it takes independence, it takes YOU!! Don't let yourself down. You are the symphony. You are the reason. You are the reason for all the good, for all the things you never did, for all the things you wish you had, for all the things you have done, for everything you gain, for everything you lose. You are the reason. At this place in the road you choose your path. You choose loneliness, you choose anger, you choose passion, you choose love, you choose. No one makes up your mind, you do. "You must become the change you wish to see in the world." You and God are the only sure thing. If everything else around you falls apart you can still make it through. You can still live. You can still decide if you fall or stand up. You can't make them understand you. You can't make them believe you, trust you, want you, be there for you. Because if God is there walking through this with you. But you can believe in yourself, trust your decisions, want what you have, and you can never fail for yourself. YOU are responsible.


I wrote this a while ago too...but i like it alot, but its weird, because its metaphorical for a lot of things that were and are going on in my life.


The knife is being gently twisted,
Making the pain more unbearable than before.
Jealousy seems to be a pattern in this wicked place,
It separates them.
The numbers went from many to few,
And now only to one.
One,
Can one be trusted?
Is one worth it?
Wouldn't none be better than one?
These contemplations turn over in her mind,
and in her heart.
The question is inevitable,
The answer is not what she had wanted.
But then again,
Is anything exactly as she wanted?
Another knife,
but this one hurts much worse.
In the epiphiny of the moment she collapses,
She falls into who she knew she was.
As she packs her bags,
she gently lays to rest the hurts that she has held for far to long.
A new journey lies ahead,
But this one is not yet complete.
With each passing day the knife continues to be turned,
Each breath,Each second until the day when she can go.
His words still echo in her mind,
His truths,
His lies,
His wisdom,
And his criticism.
She knows now that these are only her decisions.

.....

Its a curious thing the way you make me feel,
And not a good curious either.
I don't understand what I'm doing,
But it obviously is not right.


I'm really sad.
:(

I keep listening to this song. Thinking somehow it might make me feel better, but its not working...........

Mad Rush

I noticed today, while wondering around the Food Tiger, that everyone is in a rush around here(including myself)! Tourist are in a rush to get there stuff done and get to the beach, I'm in a hurry to get myself out of that store and home, just so i can scramble out the door and go to work, where i will, yet again, be running around to make sure everything is going smoothly....

Why, I wonder, in such a place of "relaxation and peace," are we to busy to actually enjoy it?

Meditations

I'm feeling sort of lazy today, so i decided to use some quotes from Marcus Aurelius Antoninus, an amazing writer.

"Begin each day by telling your self: Today I shall not be meeting with interference, ingratitude, disloyalty, illwill, and selfishness-all of them due to offenders' ignorance of what is good or evil."

"Hour by hour resolve firmly , like a Roman and a man, to do what comes to hand with correct and natural dignity, and with humanity, independence and justice. Allow your mind freedom from all other considerations."

"Are you distracted by outward cares? Then allow yourself a space of quiet, wherein you can add you knowledge of good and learn to curb your restlessness."

"Don't waste the rest of your life speculating about your neighbors, unless with a view to some mutual benifit."

"Treat with respect the power you have to form your own opinion"

"Remember that man only lives in the present, in this fleeting instant: a;; the rest of his life is either past and gone, or not yet revealed. This mortal life is a little thing, lived in a little corner of the earth."

mmk let me know what you thing, i'll write more quotes tomorrow!

The Beauty of a Serenade :)

A twist of fate,
A moment captured in timeFeel the music pulsing through your vains,
As you lean against the speaker.
Rush of blood as they begin to play,
Everything else disappears.
Feel it in your body,
Look into his eyes.
A beauty in the words you cannot describe,
A moment captured in time.

Another Chapter

So this is me:

My life is drastically changing now..a little scary. But I LOVE it!

Whats life without a little bit of craziness!?!

College starts soon(YIKES)